Not that it’s been that long… but I started this blog in January, a couple months ago. At the time, I had a lot of thoughts about OCD that I wanted to share. I put off starting a blog about it because I thought: “How could I possibly have enough material to write regularly on the subject?”
I find myself thinking the same thing about starting a blog for Doctor Who memes. We’ll see where that goes.
Another thought I had was: “How can writing about my OCD, essentially dwelling on my problems, actually help?” This blog has been a pleasant surprise. It turned out I had a lot more ideas about OCD and Tourette’s than I realized — and ideas about other disorders/illnesses, too. The more I write, the more I think of to write, and the more cool people I find who either share my problems or have similar ones.
There’s a difference between involuntarily dwelling on one’s problems depressively and excessively (what I used to do), and purposefully deciding to analyze one’s problems objectively and rationally, with reasonable limits.
I don’t know where my interest in these disorders will ultimately go. I have no official education or expertise right now, apart from my own experience — but I believe that is not insignificant. I have an urge to learn more, to meet more people like me, and to share with them — try to help them, and help myself too.
Maybe it won’t go anywhere — maybe writing about these things will simply free my mind so that it can focus on other activities.
And I love being corrected. I love that if I say something on here, there are a wealth of people who know as much or more about OCD than I do to say “Hey, you’re wrong about that.” As long as I’m actually wrong, of course.
It’s important, too, to learn to differentiate my OCD problems from other ones. I need to know when I’m having an obsessive moment, versus when I’m maybe just having trouble accepting something or avoiding something or being stupid.